“If God is Sovereign, then He is in control of all the details of my life. If He is loving, then He is going to be shaping the details of my life for my good. If He is all-wise, then He’s not going to do everything I want because I don’t know what I need. If He is patient, then He is going to take time to do all this. When we put all these things together – God’s sovereignty, love, wisdom, and patience – we have a divine story.
People often talk about prayer as if it is disconnected from what God is doing in their lives. But we are actors in His drama, listening for our lines, quieting our hearts so we can hear the voice of the Playwright.
You can’t have a good story without tension and conflict, without things going wrong. Unanswered prayers create some of the tensions in the story God is weaving in our lives. When we realize this, we want to know what God is doing. What pattern is God weaving?”
..and somewhere deep down inside all of the questions of my heart, I do know that He is Sovereign and loving and wise and patient. As stubborn as I am about penning my own story, I know that His is so much better. There’s something really comforting in knowing that He already has written out my story, the first page and the last .. I’m simply reading and living through the pages.
In those moments when I feel the page is blank, I’m trusting Him to give me eyes to see what He has written and to delight in the words He has spoken over me.
I’m grateful for the tension.
I’m grateful for the conflict.
And above all, I’m grateful that there is a God in this Universe who has the creativity and depth to look upon me and somehow include Himself in my story.
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..if you have not read Paul Miller’s “A Praying Life”, you should really check it out. It has been my single favorite book on prayer. It reminds me of the character of God and the nature of Sheryl.. two very different things.. and I need that reminder more than I have fingers and toes. It’s raw and honest and Jesus-centered, not religion-focused .. and for men like Paul, I am ever so grateful. Thanks for sharing your story with me.
Photos from life these days, uber behind on blogging…
Some of the stellar folks from my Public Admin. program
I love doing life with these guys..
Reconnecting with faces from days of old..
City girls who found ourselves in the middle of Central PA at the same time. Funny how that works.
Look out Harrisburg….
Spent some time away from paper writing with this awesome family. From day one, the Hutcheson’s reminded me so much of my own family.. random bouts of wrestling and laughing till you can’t see eyeballs. Spending the day with them made me less homesick and for that I’m grateful. Tyler, I can still out-belch you.. any day dude! #thingsgirlsdontsay
Getting to experience a glimpse of beauty and serenity.. being outside in nature is one of my favorite things to do when the weather warms up
Blue skies and rolling hills. Pennsylvania, you are beautiful.
“Alexa, how do you feel about spending hours on a gorgeous Easter Sunday doing work?” #fail
“Oh wait.. there it is..”
That pout. Nailed it.